Showing posts with label poem. Show all posts
Showing posts with label poem. Show all posts

Sunday, December 02, 2007

Remembering the Aratiles

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When I think back to my childhood, it seems that the Aratiles tree (a.k.a Alatiris, Alateris, Aratiris) is an omnipresent fixture. Back then, when there was no Internet or cable, and Atari consoles were rare, I spent most of my time outdoors. I would run barefoot in the hot asphalt pavement playing with friends. We hung upside down from the monkey bars, stood up and jumped off the swing sets, ran up the industrial grade aluminum slides, played in construction sites, and rode our bikes as far away from home as we dared. Basically, everything that our parents would tell us not to do. But it seems that at the end of every day, we would end up under the Aratiles tree. It was a common tree and it could be found all over the neighborhood. We were all very fond of climbing it and eating its berries while sitting on its branches and resting in its shade. Of course, everything would end up being sticky and it would always stain our clothes. I also remember once getting caught with a couple of friends climbing a neighbor's Aratiles tree without permission.

Even when our family moved from our old neighborhood into the Metro, the Aratiles tree was there. The new place was smaller and the gray cement dominated everything except for a triangle shaped patch of soil where a lone Aratiles tree stood surrounded by the tightly packed and narrow two storey houses.

I gained new friends in our new neighborhood and we spent most days playing in the shade of that lone tree. But as the years passed by I noticed it getting weaker, until one day, when I came around the plaza I saw people had tied ropes around it and had pulled it out of the ground. I don't remember why they did that, but I do remember being saddened by the sight of it being hauled away. For a while it wasn't the same and we would talk of how we missed the tree. But as certain as the sun shines life moved on. Children are fickle and they forget easily; to a young mind there are many distractions and there are always new things to love.

That event seemed to coincide with when as a kid, I decided that I was going to be one of the adults; Entering that phase where you stop bragging about your latest toy and conversations with your friends start to change. I sometimes wonder if that was a mere coincidence or if there was more to the Aratiles tree. Could it be that the child was hauled away with the tree? It seemed that something shifted in the world, that the lens had changed. From a soft focus where things seemed to glow and the background was blurred, the image suddenly sharpened and things were suddenly clearer. Whereas before the blur allowed for the imagination, now the world became hard and rational. Those empty houses we passed while out on our bikes were no longer haunted, but merely abandoned. The rustling tree at night was no longer due to its giant guardian shifting in the branches to light his thick tobacco. Tall grasses no longer hid gnome villages, but dangerous snakes. You realize that you will never stumble upon a portal to another world in those thickets. You stop rubbing anything that remotely resembles an old oil lamp in hope of getting wishes. It seems as if that fruit was the source of childhood innocence and wonderment.

What if the berry of the Aratiles is the anti-thesis of the Forbidden Fruit? While one takes away innocence, could the other impart it? As the Tree of Knowledge is hidden away, the Tree of Innocence is everywhere. As men search for Eden to behold the tree where dwelt the Serpent, this humble tree will grow wild in the most barren of gardens. As Adam and Eve were forbidden to eat The Fruit, this will be offered to the children. But then, the child eventually tires of the fruit, and visit the tree less and less. He will forget. His young mind will discover other things and learn to love something new. Still, unlike first man and woman who were well aware of what they lost after being casted out of the Garden, the children will never know the value of this fruit and they join the world of Man willingly.

Sometimes when I come around that plaza, I can still see the outline of that tree. Like a phantom limb of a dismembered arm, it feels like it's there.

Just to be safe, I think I will put this down on my "Father To Do List", for when I have kids:

Plant an Aratiles tree.

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Just Another Cog In the Wheel

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Is it fair to appraise the beauty of a painting through words that describe it?

Days of frustration and perseverance expressed in numbers. Achievements summed up in lines of text. Measured by those who did not witness them, guided only by anecdotes from those that did. This is the method by which worth is judged. How can one feel justly quantified by such standards? How much attention can one's measure be given when it is only one among many?

Thursday, November 16, 2006

A Bit Of A Hiccup

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The missus and I were driving around last weekend running some errands when they played "5 years" by Sugar Hiccup on the radio. I haven't heard the song in a while. I think it's been more than ten years since the song was released. But I do remember that made an impression on me when I first heard it. Since then it invokes a lot of imagery in my mind when I hear it. It's very haunting. I thought I should capture those images by writing them down. Just like the song, I tried to keep it abstract:



Sublime anguish, forlornness, ever present, ominous, and looming. To forget, she immerses herself in the mundane. Keep busy and distracted, that is the routine. But once in awhile a glimpse of other people's lives wakes a memory; a moment in her own life, of that life, of what used to be. The memory triggers another. Happy though they may be, they now overwhelm her, and sadden her. "He will never be back", a chant that echoes in her mind during these moments. It abates the surge of memories, plunging her back into despondency. He didn't leave willingly, it was not his choice, not within his power to avert. He was taken. He would never have left her of his own accord.

What I like best about the song is that it is mostly formless and raw, you can mold it so that it fits your experience.


On a lighter note, I wanted to record a momentous event. My credit card has a zero balance:
I've paid everything up! I'm so happy I could cry! I wanted to record this event for posterity's sake. Show my future children that it is possible, that it can be done. Let it be known that on this day, November 16, 2006, I am debt free! That is, just until the bills come in a week or two :P

But since I used up all my money paying off the credit card, here is the Christmas shopping list this year:

1. Mom - Pot Holder
2. Dad - Neck Tie
3. Brothers - Socks
4. Wife - Chocolates, with a hug and a kiss to make it extra sweet
5. Everyone Else - Christmas Cards
*please note that all items in this list are prefixed with "cheap". It was removed for brevity.

I remember this list. I think I had it when I was back in college.

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Ode to a sand castle

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Thought I should modify my blog description. A sand castle signifies mortality or temporal existence. I didn't feel that the tag line "the only constant is change" had the same message. So I just wrote something new:

the tide comes in
we crumble
returned to whence we came
the act is not malevolent
it is natural and peaceful
the surf stirs us
drifting across the abyss
glimpses of a foreign shore
dreams of building once more